When I close my eyes,
a huge black boder line
blocks me from society.
I feel like being left all alone
in an empty world.
My heart was beating so fast,
like a racing car in a
competition.
All of the things seem to
happen so quickly in a
blink of an eye.
Worries, fear, stree
all right at that
instant.
I was a shaking earthquake.
Nobody was there, but
just myself standing
in the cold darkness.
Everything I said or did,
had a loud echo
right back at me.
Voices of many others
went through my ear.
Laughing joking, and
giving out directions
from people around me.
People were
looking at me
with a particular stare
into my face.
I wanted to cry, but
couldn't cry out loud.
Just to my heart to myself.
My would of my heart
like it was
slashed open with a dagger.
Blood decant from my injury
that nothing could repair
the pain I had many years.
No one could understand
how I feel right now.
Not able to get
into the crown
it's like taking away mt life.
Why can't people
get to know a person
before putting a judgement on me?
How would it feel
if it were you.
I know it's hard
to be friends
with one another, but
try to be
in the position
I'm standing.
Did you ever think
how I felt
if you were
to insult me
behind my back.
Also by using
a sneaky look
it would make
another painful wound
into my heart.
Now how long
this scar would
heal that pain
would all go away
without coming back.
In my mind
many of my thoughts
go through every second, so
do you know
how much pressure
is going through my life.
I hope that one day
people could be
my friend
because of
who I am
not the way I look
or anything else.
~by BabieLavender~