The Boundary Between...

When I close my eyes,

a huge black boder line

blocks me from society.

I feel like being left all alone

in an empty world.

My heart was beating so fast,

like a racing car in a

competition.

All of the things seem to

happen so quickly in a

blink of an eye.

Worries, fear, stree

all right at that

instant.

I was a shaking earthquake.

Nobody was there, but

just myself standing

in the cold darkness.

Everything I said or did,

had a loud echo

right back at me.

Voices of many others

went through my ear.

Laughing joking, and

giving out directions

from people around me.

People were

looking at me

with a particular stare

into my face.

I wanted to cry, but

couldn't cry out loud.

Just to my heart to myself.

My would of my heart

like it was

slashed open with a dagger.

Blood decant from my injury

that nothing could repair

the pain I had many years.

No one could understand

how I feel right now.

Not able to get

into the crown

it's like taking away mt life.

Why can't people

get to know a person

before putting a judgement on me?

How would it feel

if it were you.

I know it's hard

to be friends

with one another, but

try to be

in the position

I'm standing.

Did you ever think

how I felt

if you were

to insult me

behind my back.

Also by using

a sneaky look

it would make

another painful wound

into my heart.

Now how long

this scar would 

heal that pain

would all go away

without coming back.

In my mind

many of my thoughts

go through every second, so

do you know

how much pressure

is going through my life.

I hope that one day

people could be

my friend

because of

who I am

not the way I look

or anything else.

~by BabieLavender~